I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.

I really wish there was a way I could just make you go away for good. Unfortunately, that isn’t my choice to make. All I know is that as long as you are around, as long as your name pops up, there’s always going to be a little part of me that feels uneasy and will never be completely comfortable. And the worst part is that I don’t think he’ll ever understand how much it sucks, or how unfair it is to me. Or that my feelings are the ones that should matter. I know how much he loves me and that he’d never do anything stupid, but I just can’t get this out of my head, and I wish it would just stop already.